Winter © 2010 Dee James

Another petal falls from the stem
In the morning you can collect
No response at the weekend
Clear your inbox a bomb is coming

Wish my eyes were shielded
To the anger within
It's taken it's toll
and he's taken offence to everything
Struggle for connection
I lay down my weapons
and I find myself in Winter
so dark and cold

So this is how it escalated
She uses me like a crutch
In the past I've been stronger
But right now this is just too much

He's just getting wasted
and I can feel this lover
with nowhere to go
oh what I would give right now
to be swept up in your arms
my happiness returns
our love burst through the wall that I built to protect me

Would you let go of his love
as you bleed down at his feet?
Where's the safety in need?
The safety in need, this is damaging me.

Would you love if he was cursed?
Did not know it would be worse
But I thought I could feel it
I thought I could feel him in me

So flood me with your love
I live like an Island
would you swim out to me, swim out to me
in Winter?

In case you didn't know..

I am now on soundcloud- http://soundcloud.com/queenofuncool which is far better than some other unmentionables due to the fact that there are next to NO adverts. How wonderful. Go listen x

Saying you only like one type of music is like saying all your friends have the same personality.

Love

So, just as it works for you it does for me. The braver face you put on, the harder it is for me to give love to you, my friend. And so the universe with me. Me within myself. You have to let it go. Let it come to you, break down if you have to, let it GO. Only then can you let the good stuff in.

and other thoughts..in a new song.

I will post soon x

Something You Should Know

The Kindness Of Strangers.

Some days, for whatever reason, you lack drive and self belief. Something is seeping out of you, and you are the only one around to remind yourself to stitch it back up.

Today I had such a day, but I've a broken needle, and ran out of thread.

So it was a much greater surprise when a stranger (you know who you are if you're reading this) extended their gratitude to me, in such a way that I was made to feel intelligible, blessed, and truly replenished in my self belief.

What an amazing feeling.

I'd like to say-to that stranger, (to please mind my grammer as I have no editor) that as soon as that happened, I felt like you were handing my belief right back to me. Like "Here, get on, this is your calling." like I had been begging the universe to confirm to me. And I felt in no way weird about it.

I knew you as soon as I saw you in the room, and our conversation proved my intuition valid. It's a one off. You recognise something, and you let it be known. I absolutely hold on to that.

I want you to know that my doubts were prompted by others, and not for a second my own. I apologise for making you think I had doubt. I never did. You wanted me to run with it, and I would have. You said ..for whatever.. but you and I both know that I am here to make music. And that is exactly what I will do.


Thank You.

x

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